Nothing has changed since yesterday. Same will be for tomorrow. But when you look back, you will be amazed; for the change you feel. You will be stupefied to see how the things have changed, relationships have changed, intimacies have changed and how the people have changed. It feels as if we have come a long way and you don't find a way back. The sweetness of "hello" you felt on those days begins to lose its flavour gradually. The sight of people you have been accustomed to becomes a distant memory. Time and often you will get a reality check. Once in a while, you stumble upon new things, new people. You happen to develop an attachment with some of them. Some of them will be your addiction. You surrender. You let it out. You confess your inner thing without thinking its outcome. You don't care a bit. And that will be the moment, you lose yourself. Your attachment rules over you. If they are people, they will take you for granted. The respect you get in return will be indirectly proportional to the degree of value you place over them. If they are things, its even more hazardous. They destroy you. In both cases, you will be penalized. For surrendering. For melting.
And when you notice the changes that have happened, you try to resist the change. You want some things to be the same as they used to be. And you suffer. You always think what did you do inappropriately but you don't see the mistakes you have committed already. There used to be some people you thought you could annoy as much as you want. Not because, you take them for granted. Because, you connected with them so well. The stubbornness you used to show, the irritation you used to give were the proof for the fitting connection. Proof for the inner self. You think they should savour the annoyance as it resembles an intimacy. And then you know, its working other way around. You are being self-centered. You will be devastated to know that. You shall be careful while talking with people you used to chatter so fondly. Why? Well, you surrendered. You ask about their well being. They don't. They just reply. And you keep on wondering have they been promoted to a different stratosphere! You were resisting the change.
You were piling up your mistakes. First you surrendered and then you tried to resist the change. Because you were still a child. Slowly but surely, you will learn some things change just for the sake of change. Not because its required. And then you let it go. Slowly but surely, you grow up. You hold no hard feelings. You don't change. Everything will be same within you. You just accept the change. You just flow with it. Its growing up. You don't complain. You don't blame anyone. You realize these all are natural. You will be more graceful. But on the way, you learn some lesson. Never melt. It means you are deifying others. It means you're devaluing yourself. Now, you can look back. And when you look back, only thing you do is smile.
And when you notice the changes that have happened, you try to resist the change. You want some things to be the same as they used to be. And you suffer. You always think what did you do inappropriately but you don't see the mistakes you have committed already. There used to be some people you thought you could annoy as much as you want. Not because, you take them for granted. Because, you connected with them so well. The stubbornness you used to show, the irritation you used to give were the proof for the fitting connection. Proof for the inner self. You think they should savour the annoyance as it resembles an intimacy. And then you know, its working other way around. You are being self-centered. You will be devastated to know that. You shall be careful while talking with people you used to chatter so fondly. Why? Well, you surrendered. You ask about their well being. They don't. They just reply. And you keep on wondering have they been promoted to a different stratosphere! You were resisting the change.
You were piling up your mistakes. First you surrendered and then you tried to resist the change. Because you were still a child. Slowly but surely, you will learn some things change just for the sake of change. Not because its required. And then you let it go. Slowly but surely, you grow up. You hold no hard feelings. You don't change. Everything will be same within you. You just accept the change. You just flow with it. Its growing up. You don't complain. You don't blame anyone. You realize these all are natural. You will be more graceful. But on the way, you learn some lesson. Never melt. It means you are deifying others. It means you're devaluing yourself. Now, you can look back. And when you look back, only thing you do is smile.
